Friday, October 31, 2014

Halloween 2014

Aubri as one AMAZING lion...she won $50 in the Westwood Mall costume contest

Little red riding hood, Rosie the Riveter and Ms. Kay 

Sam and the amish Tyler (Sam has always been such a good friend to my son, I am thankful for that)
 Sam, Adam & Tyler (i am glad my son has such good friends)

Thursday, October 23, 2014

what being a mother means to me

A mother is someone who is always there for you. From the time you wake up until the time you go to bed. She gives advice when asked, she tries not to pry even though you think she is. She tries to make you happy when you are sad, she tries to do what is best for you even when you think she is annoying. She is excited for your achievements and is sad when you are sad. When you make bad choices she is not happy but tries her best to fix the situation and help you through it. When you are injured or sick she wants to make you feel better at any cost.

She hauls you to and from your athletic events and school functions.  She schedules and get you to haircuts, doctor appointments and rendezvous you have arranged with your friends even on the snowiest of nights. She brings you clothes shopping even though that's not her thing. She plans surprises and birthday parties, she has treasure hunts and hides Easter baskets even though you think you are too old. She colors eggs and carves pumpkins. She tries to remember everything you need to get done in that day without forgetting but sometimes it happens. She sews your clothes when they need mending, she makes Halloween costumes. She teaches you to ride a bike and tie your shoes. She goes without if there is something you need to have or she rearranges her plans to make sure you get to where you are going. She washes your clothes and tries to make meals you like.

She also is not perfect. She makes mistakes and loses her patience. She gets cranky when tired or sick. She snaps after reminding her kids 1000 times to do something they have been asked 1000 times to do. She doesn't want to be talked back to, she wants help when she asks for it, which isn't often and she doesn't want to be lied to. Plain and simple she wants to be loved like she loves you.

She does not get to choose whether she is a mother one day and not the next. She does not get to disappear for months or years at a time and then reappear in her children's life when it's convenient for her. She does not get to turn her children's lives upside down by leaving and then stroll back in as if nothing happened. She does not get to promise to always be there when she has not. She does not get to take credit for raising children, she did not raise. She does not have the right to say she has a "bond" when she has only created that in her own mind.

Mother's Days, birthdays and Holidays are difficult when you lose a parent. Even after 19 years I still struggle. I see myself more like my mother as i get older but I am definitely my own person. My mother was quiet until she laughed, patient until you tried that patience and kind until you upset her child. I am like my mother in one way, the one thing that will keep me from my children is death

Sunday, October 19, 2014

birthday present for K-Dorie

Here is her ring, she loves that little heart shaped beauty :)

I can't wait to see what ring is buried inside this candle...i will post a follow up picture

Monday, October 13, 2014

- 12

Phase II
but seriously
I am a happy gal

walk in closet

So since Sheena has moved out & in with her hubby, that left a vacant room. It is now the nerd cave, it was painted (light gray) and cleaned for him. I won't take a picture because it is still a "work in progress" to put it nicely.

That left the weird room off of the master bedroom for me to create my WALK IN CLOSET !!!!

First i took this desk that was no longer being used and cut 1/2 of it off. That's right, I took the circular saw out right in my kitchen and ripped that baby in 1/2. See how it fits perfect where the ceiling comes to an angle ? (this is under the stairs so that's why it's an odd shape) This was Tina's brilliant idea

 Before:                                     After:
I recovered the vanity chair that Aubri had in her room. I have had this gray/turquoise silky fabric in my stash for a long time. I LOVE it
    Before:                                   After:
Next I switched dressers with Aubri, I gave her my long dresser & took her tall one
Aubri's old dresser                                                         My old dresser
This is what it looks like so far :) I am thrilled, my friend Tina is the handywoman and helped me pick out the stuff and hang it. Now I have to sell the 2 HUGE wardrobes I have on the opposite wall so I can finish this project. I am on a strict/tight budget to do this closet but I will update about that later. The back wall is covered by gray velvet curtains (i am in love with them). There is a gross window that needs to be removed but no time or $ to do that now so that's why there is a curtain wall.
Tina said I need more clothes...

Since I took the long dresser out of my bedroom it left a whole wall of empty space. Finally room to move, please god ignore the paneling and mauve carpeting :/

Thursday, October 2, 2014

christmas in October ?

I once heard someone say you can count your true friends on one hand. I am a lucky gal. 

I got a text from my friend and she said "stop by I have something for you". She bought me the clear glass water bottle that i had been talking about that i wanted, thank you friend. Then i got a call from another friend "I bought us a new water bottle for our trip tomorrow, you can pick your color". I show up at her house and she had a new skirt and new scarf for me, too. Really? more treats, thank you my friend.

Not sure what i did to deserve these treats but it almost brought me to tears. I feel the love !
thanks girls, I am gonna keep you both

Wednesday, October 1, 2014


this girl loves chocolate

I still can't believe I made that cake & it turned out pretty cool